will never lose hope

Yeah, if I had known it would be like this, I would have done everything in my power to make different decisions. It crushes my heart to see things the way they are left. Two people so closely entwined require a severance so that they can grow, but how I wish it didn’t have to be this brutal.

I am compelled to link this experience of parting to the Once song “Falling Slowly”: Take this sinking boat and point it home; We've still got time. We don’t have a choice about what to do now --- we must make the best of it. As if this was part of the plan all along. We would come together, and grow and blossom, and then we would separate and find value in the separation. How I pray that what is left can still be nurtured and we can find ourselves growing back together in friendship.

We already know that I’m sentimental. That I do not take love and friendship lightly. I hope that some of you understand my choice to try to reconnect this family unit and make it work this time – with open eyes. And yet at the same time, how it is of EQUAL importance to me that she and I find a way (someday) to bring out each other’s shine again, like we always have.